Sunflower Seed Butter

Oh my goodness you guys!!!!!!!! I was so happy last night I could have cried. 26 months ago when I started the autoimmune protocol (AIP) to heal my leaky gut, nuts and seeds were my very last thing to give up because they were my very FAVORITE!!! (Read more about my journey to finding the AIP here).

Well, something I haven’t mentioned on the blog yet is that last summer I received a very serious diagnosis. However, it was my “root cause” as far as my exhaustion and multiple increasing food sensitivities, etc. I began treatment right away which has only ramped up the further I go along.

This is what keeps me so terribly busy each and every day… It can take a few years to heal from this. I won’t be sharing more at this time about what the diagnosis was. But, let me just say, it took all of the wind out of my sails and brought me to my knees to a level of grief and suffering like I’ve never experienced. It has taken everything within me just to cope and try to hold on. The grief is finally coming in waves rather than just being at an overwhelming level every single day.

It is the reason I was not able to participate in Diabetes Awareness Month this past November. This diagnosis, for me, is a million times worse than my Type 1 diabetes has ever been in 30 years! And no, I am not saying Type 1 diabetes is a walk in the park by any means! It is incredibly hard and frustrating and all the other difficult words you could think of. And I’m sitting at a 284 right now…. Ugh! I certainly still don’t like diabetes.

Anyway…… this is the reason why I’m starting to be able to reintroduce foods on the AIP that previously made me very sick and unwell. And….. last night I had sunflower butter!!!!!!!! I pulled out of the freezer one of the plantain waffles I made recently and topped it. It was so delicious. This morning I gave Jaim a big hug after I gave him the good news. He was already in bed sleeping when I had this late night snack after a women’s group I attended.

Very happy and pleased. And I just wanted to share. Don’t quit trying to find your root cause. Don’t give up on feeling well despite the 101 setbacks. It’s always, or at least very often…. one step forward and two steps back. And I celebrate the hell out of these steps forward.

#AIP #AutoimmuneProtocol #ItWorks

#ImHealing #LotsOfWork #ButImHealing

#FeelsAmazing #ThankYouLord

In Peace and Light,

Cynthia

Joy….. utter joy

 

Happy 2 years to Diabetes Light!!

photo-76Today is a very special day!! Diabetes Light celebrates 2 years! In blog terms this is officially called a blogaversary or blogiversary. But I’m about as big on that term as I am “diaversary” (living with diabetes anniversary) so I’ll just leave it that I’m celebrating my 2 year blog anniversary!

On December 9, 2011 the Facebook page for Diabetes Light was created. Then 7 days later on December 16, 2011 I wrote my first blog post about the benefits of coconut oil. Although I had wanted to start a blog for a long time, to start Diabetes Light right before finals was truly a distraction from my studies. I was enrolled in a nursing program at the time and procrastinating.. Since then I have left the program but Diabetes Light carries on!!

One of the greatest joys of blogging for me is the wonderful Diabetes Light community that has formed on Facebook. Each day I share a quote, things that make me laugh, smile or bring me health. Sometimes just what is on my mind or perhaps something I’m wrestling with. My greatest joy is getting to hear from you and what you are thinking about and experiencing.

We now have 832 members in our Facebook community which is about double the amount we had at this time last year for the one year blog anniversary! I am so pleased our community is growing and look forward to our continued growth in the next year!

My mission remains the same as when I started two years ago. I certainly don’t have things figured out as far as this crazy life with D, but I love sharing about my journey with others in a quest to live well—happy, healthy and with peace regardless of my diagnoses.

The added benefit? This diagnosis has allowed me to meet all of you! This is so incredible to me and one of the definite blessings living with diabetes.

Thank YOU!!!

Mostly I am writing this post today to thank you for joining me on the adventures of this D girl with her dog Jonah. 🙂 Thank you for every like, share, comment and message. They truly mean so much to me and let me know you like the work I am doing through Diabetes Light and I should continue! Yay!

And thank you for reading. I write to help others and spend a lot of time and energy on each article I write so truly appreciate your readership. Your love and support of what I do is fundamental to my success.

This next part may sound super sappy and I truly apologize if it does… But I want you to know you are never alone. I may not have time for as many close friendships as I’d like, but I care about each one of you. And before I go to bed each night and in church each Sunday I say a prayer for our Diabetes Light community. I am always sending you light, love and peace from this little corner of the world in Minnesota. I hope you can feel it, especially on those dark days we all experience from time to time.. <3

Quick Summary of Blog Happenings…

I’d like to share just a little review of what I’ve been up to with Diabetes Light the past year! I was invited to speak three times on behalf of my blog! I love this so much. Although I was nervous, I was also so excited and loved sharing my story. I hope 2014 opens up more opportunities for sharing my passion and how I do my best to live well in body, mind and spirit. Here are a few pics! The first several are me teaching diabetes firsthand to a group of nursing students at a local university.

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Speaking to parents at a childrens diabetes camp - Camp Sweet Life

Speaking to parents at a childrens diabetes camp – Camp Sweet Life

Speaking at a JDRF AWTO (Adults with Type 1) group

Speaking at a JDRF AWTO (Adults with Type 1) group

I also took a blogging position in June with an online healthcare publisher called Diabetic Lifestyle, a subsidiary of Vertical Health. I write articles weekly for my blog, Finding Peace Between the Pokes (find listing of archived articles here). While initially somewhat stressful writing for a larger audience the first few months, I now have gotten over the stage fright – thank goodness! I have article ideas coming out of my ears! I have so many thoughts week to week what to write and share about. I hope it doesn’t stop! Which of course was my initial fear.. How does one write weekly without running out of things to say? Can I keep it up for 52 weeks alone? So far, so good. 🙂 This also means I am contributing less to diabeteslight.com but I try to blog here about once a month.

Lastly, Diabetes Light was also nominated by members of our community for “Rookie of the Year,” through WEGO Health on behalf of their Health Activist Awards. I made it to the finalist category and although I didn’t win, it was an honor to be selected amongst such talented bloggers.

IMG_0977Oh, one last funny thing. I cannot tell you how much my dog Jonah comes up when people talk about my blog. That little guy likes to steal the show! Lol. But I don’t mind. 🙂 I love my boy so much and he brings me so much happiness and smiles. And I’m glad he is able to bring you some of that joy too through his pictures and silly stories.

Who me? (Jonah...)

Who me?!?

Thanks again for reading! You all are truly the best! I appreciate you so much and am thankful for the special and meaningful part you play in my life. Many blessings to you, always. Namaste (the light in me honors and salutes the light in you!).

In Peace & Light,

Cynthia

Diabetes Awareness Month: D-Qute #21, Hero

November is Diabetes Awareness Month! I am pleased to present you with D-Quote, a Diabetes Light initiative that gives voice to our community and helps provide awareness for this challenging invisible condition. Thank you for reading. I encourage you to pass these meaningful quotes and stories along to increase our advocacy and outreach efforts. All advocacy moves us closer to a cure. Thanks for your help! 🙂

**A special thanks to our community members for taking the time to write and bravely share their stories and experiences to provide diabetes awareness.

“I once gave myself a shot in the leg on an outside deck on a cruise ship, nobody else around. I was wearing shorts, so it was very quick. My husband caught someone way across deck looking and grimacing. Quick as a wink, hubby flipped him off. My hero.”

Becky Tise
Type 1 for 8 years
DX date 10-15-2005

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In Peace & Light,

Cynthia

Diabetes Awareness Month: D-Quote #20, Perseverance

November is Diabetes Awareness Month! I am pleased to present you with D-Quote, a Diabetes Light initiative that gives voice to our community and helps provide awareness for this challenging invisible condition. Thank you for reading. I encourage you to pass these meaningful quotes and stories along to increase our advocacy and outreach efforts. All advocacy moves us closer to a cure. Thanks for your help! 🙂

**A special thanks to our community members for taking the time to write and bravely share their stories and experiences to provide diabetes awareness.

photo-72“For me, perseverance is key with diabetes.  And determination. These things I learned from watching my mother. She is the most determined woman I know. I think that if she can stay strong through losing two of her children, cancer 3 times, watching one daughter battles Crohn’s and me deal with diabetes, then I can do it.

I am determined to live the best live I can and not let diabetes get in the way. So I work hard. I watch what I eat, I count carbs and balance insulin. Basically, I think like a pancreas. I take one day at a time, for what good does it do to worry about tomorrow. And most of all, I hold on tight to Jesus because this is one wild roller coaster ride! I can do anything, even diabetes, through Christ who gives me strength.”

Cathy DeVreeze
T1 for 8 years
Diagnosed May 2005

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In Peace & Light,

Cynthia

Diabetes Awareness Month: D-Quote #19, Rock Star

November is Diabetes Awareness Month! I am pleased to present you with D-Quote, a Diabetes Light initiative that gives voice to our community and helps provide awareness for this challenging invisible condition. Thank you for reading. I encourage you to pass these meaningful quotes and stories along to increase our advocacy and outreach efforts. All advocacy moves us closer to a cure. Thanks for your help! 🙂

**A special thanks to our community members for taking the time to write and bravely share their stories and experiences to provide diabetes awareness.

photo-71“It’s Diabetes awareness month. In just over 3 years AJ has tested his blood more than 7,000 times. He has spent hours in the nurses office instead of the classroom. He jabs a needle in his stomach every 3 days so he can be infused with insulin and another one that helps us watch his numbers throughout the day. He weighs his food and has decided some foods are just not worth the frustrating numbers they cause. He is 11 years old and must think about food and carbs and insulin throughout the day just to see tomorrow. Yet, he’s a regular kid with regular likes and dislikes. He is my Rock Star.”

Shelley – T1d mom who loves to spend time with her kids, just not at 3AM

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In Peace & Light,

Cynthia

 

Diabetes Awareness Month: D-Quote #18, Lifestyle Change

November is Diabetes Awareness Month! I am pleased to present you with D-Quote, a Diabetes Light initiative that gives voice to our community and helps provide awareness for this challenging invisible condition. Thank you for reading. I encourage you to pass these meaningful quotes and stories along to increase our advocacy and outreach efforts. All advocacy moves us closer to a cure. Thanks for your help! 🙂

**A special thanks to our community members for taking the time to write and bravely share their stories and experiences to provide diabetes awareness.

photo-70“Type 1 diabetes is a mandatory change in lifestyle, an alternative perspective on every day choices like eating, sleeping, and driving (among other things), an unexpected, undesired, blameless dependence on insulin and blood sugar testing, and, as of today it is still incurable.”

Michelle Kaelin
T1 dx 01/82

 

 

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In Peace & Light,

Cynthia

Diabetes Awareness Month: Quote #17, Strong & Hopeful

November is Diabetes Awareness Month! I am pleased to present you with D-Quote, a Diabetes Light initiative that gives voice to our community and helps provide awareness for this challenging invisible condition. Thank you for reading. I encourage you to pass these meaningful quotes and stories along to increase our advocacy and outreach efforts. All advocacy moves us closer to a cure. Thanks for your help! 🙂

**A special thanks to our community members for taking the time to write and bravely share their stories and experiences to provide diabetes awareness.

photo-69“Having lived with Type 1 Diabetes since the age of five, it has brought me more challenges than I can count, but I am proud to have overcome all of them. I don’t know what kind of person I would be without my diabetes because that’s really a life I haven’t lived.  But I do know what kind of person living with diabetes has made me: I am strong, I am hopeful, I am determined and I am resilient. I have diabetes. Diabetes does not have me!”

Asha Brown
Founder of www.wearediabetes.org

 

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In Peace & Light,

Cynthia

Diabetes Awareness Month: D-Quote #16, Owning the Reigns

November is Diabetes Awareness Month! I am pleased to present you with D-Quote, a Diabetes Light initiative that gives voice to our community and helps provide awareness for this challenging invisible condition. Thank you for reading. I encourage you to pass these meaningful quotes and stories along to increase our advocacy and outreach efforts. All advocacy moves us closer to a cure. Thanks for your help! 🙂

**A special thanks to our community members for taking the time to write and bravely share their stories and experiences to provide diabetes awareness.

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“I find that my diabetes is like riding a horse. There are days where you feel great, you saddle up, you’re superior and that horse is in submission, being directed by you. And then there are those days where you have everything you need, all your gear, it looks like a perfect riding day, and all of a sudden you’re thrown off, being dragged behind for miles in the dust and also hit by the occasional rock.

This horse goes 24/7, it sure has stamina. You even have to balance on it in your sleep. Everyday, you’re in the saddle. It’s an unpredictable beast, but you like a challenge, you wake with enthusiasm, hoping that you own the reigns again that day. Day after day after day. You never let it own you.”

Carrie Hetherington
25 yrs old, Type 1
dx’d 8/7/2008

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In Peace & Light,

Cynthia

Diabetes Awareness Month: D-Quote #15, One day at at time

November is Diabetes Awareness Month! I am pleased to present you with D-Quote, a Diabetes Light initiative that gives voice to our community and helps provide awareness for this challenging invisible condition. Thank you for reading. I encourage you to pass these meaningful quotes and stories along to increase our advocacy and outreach efforts. All advocacy moves us closer to a cure. Thanks for your help! 🙂

**A special thanks to our community members for taking the time to write and bravely share their stories and experiences to provide diabetes awareness.

photo-67“I have had diabetes for 44 years. Back when I was diagnosed with it in 1969 the only way we could tell what our insulin needs were was by urine tests. I was not a model diabetic so my blood sugars were, I’m sure very high, so I was very lethargic. I was not into sports and I was very shy so I hung out with the kids who would accept me, which were the smokers and druggies, which introduced me to the terrible life of alcoholism and drug addiction. I did not respond well to drugs but I sure enjoyed the feeling I felt from alcohol. Alcohol was my release from the stress I had to deal with with my diabetes, but also caused others issues with my diabetes.

Many years later I was tired of dealing with the alcohol addiction and how it was affecting my health so I entered myself into a treatment facility for a month. After that I signed up for the Tour de Cure and found a lot of people that dealt with the same issues I did I finally  found a community that  I can find help with in many areas that help me take control of my health issues and am very grateful for that.

I have now learned a lot about myself and my diabetes and have a lot of support from the diabetes community. My quotes that help me deal with my diabetes and alcoholism are “One day at a time” and “Easy does it.” I deal with both issues one day at a time and I also have to remind myself from day to day to take it easy on myself. I am so grateful that “Today” I am still healthy for what I have put myself through and still have not suffered from any diabetes complications.”

Marianne Mealey
Type 1 diabetic
44 years

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In Peace & Light,

Cynthia

Diabetes Awareness Month: D-Quote #14, Health through Changes

November is Diabetes Awareness Month! I am pleased to present you with D-Quote, a Diabetes Light initiative that gives voice to our community and helps provide awareness for this challenging invisible condition. Thank you for reading. I encourage you to pass these meaningful quotes and stories along to increase our advocacy and outreach efforts. All advocacy moves us closer to a cure. Thanks for your help!

**A special thanks to our community members for taking the time to write and bravely share their stories and experiences to provide diabetes awareness.

photo-66“A successful diabetic is someone who transforms their fears into foresight and vigilance, mistakes and pain into resolve, and desire into undertaking. It’s not an easy path for anyone. Trying to play the part of your pancreas is VERY difficult and I’ll never be able to do it perfectly; it’s simply an unreasonable expectation that many in the medical profession (non-diabetics) demand and guilt their patients into believing is achievable 100% of the time.

Diabetes means enduring thousands of needle and lancet pokes every year, an endless array of medical appointments, disrupted daily schedules and more importantly broken sleep as you wake to treat a life-threatening low or high blood sugar. It’s maddening how many variables there are: stress, sickness, sleep, intensity of exercise (or lack thereof), stars aren’t lined up right…?!?!

Enough of the frustrations. After the initial shock of diagnosis and subsequent life adjustments I came to realize what the truly important things in my life are: family, friends, good health and quality of life. It took over a decade of wrestling with emotions, isolation and erratic blood sugars to seek another path. The Diabetic Masters I learned from, Dr. Richard Bernstein, Ellen Sherman, Cynthia Zuber, DeAnn Mullins, Joslin medalists and many more all inspired me to focus my energy towards positive health progress and embody the mind, body, spirit required to manage and live the D-life.

After being on a Medtronic pump and CGMS for approximately 8 years, I recently came off and went back to Multiple Daily Injections (MDI). The most significant improvement though was radically changing my diet from the ADA recommended one to a very low carb “paleo-like” diet that uses the slow metabolism of proteins through gluconeogenesis to give my cells the bulk of their required glucose.

I can report feeling better than I have in a decade, have lost over 20 lbs and enjoy very stabilized blood glucose levels with no post-meal spikes! I’m never hungry or snacky after meals and feel very satisfied. My sugars are better controlled now than they ever were in the past and I’m really making some serious progress managing this ubiquitous disease. After almost of a decade of trying to be “normal” like everybody else, I’ve realized that is neither sustainable nor safe.

I feel so much better after meeting others in the Diabetes Online Community (DOC) that encourage & inspire me daily letting me know that I’m not alone. The momentum this new regime has given me, the radical improvement in health and the influential people I’ve met have inspired me to start my own page to share the highs & lows we all endure as Type 1, 2 or 3 diabetics. Welcome to Diabetes awareness month and as Mahatma Gandhi said, ‘Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever.”

Ian Magary
Type 1 diabetes
Diagnosed at age 31
4/1/2003

Ian’s Facebook Page! https://www.facebook.com/thebetacell/info

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In Peace & Light,

Cynthia